this is my study week. damn uneasy one. suddenly got e-mail from a mysterious anonymous writing her some touching love story, asking me to write in the blog to let her get inspired. i got perplexed and wondering for a short while.
"hey, wut for? wut on Earth you request such a thing?"
then shockingly she said,
"you are so inspirational, ida. you're good in many ways. and i managed to find out that you had an amazing love experience. and i hope you could give me some spiritual boosts because i'm damn broken now. i am thinking to just simply end my life. i really hope your writings could light up my spirit again."
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and all those conversations continued.
then i sat back on my couch, leaned and took a deep breath. yeah. frankly i just don't wanna remember my pastimes. but my instinct strongly telling me, "she needs help. and you're the one who can help her." fretted and feeling lazy, i dragged my feet towards my study desk. pulled out my laptop from its bag and start writing this piece of crap. now heartbroken baby girl, i hope you'll read it.
1st sight love could be emerged in so many ways and means. in your case, you see an attractive fellow, your heart get hitched. and you claimed he is THE ONE. then you both got to know each other. and the love seed got sowed, a love tree got planted. and a love fruit got produced. you grabbed the fruit, and munched it.
but IT IS NOT ENDED THERE, my dear. the story isn't as simple as that.
once you got the fruit, it is not yet over. your love garden isn't yet succeed and attain an eternal happiness. there are two possibilities once you get the fruit and munch it. if you managed to munch on the right love fruit, you are considered lucky. maybe you love tree will be continued to keep blossoming love flowers and sweet juicy fruits.
but just remember a thing. not every single time you are that lucky. sumtymes you UNINTENTIONALLY munched on the bitter and rotten one. even though you never had the INTENTION to. you got wut i mean?
maybe at our side, we hope that he will always be the one. but you have to always notice that the GOD's WILL has long been written in our book of Destiny. long before we are really created in this life.
in relationship, we're just hoping. sumtymes wut we wish for will not turn up as wut we expected.
so the right concept you should cling on is, to be MINIMALIST. not too committed. no. just not to much, please.
we can just plan. we can just dream. we can just strive for it.
sumtymes we're trying so hard; without realizing He is the One who will grant or reject our planning. sumtymes we're so confident we will make it till the end; without remembering He can always change our feelings whenever He wants.
sumtymes we're so in love with him; whole-heartedly; without thinking that we have neglected OUR LOVE TO GOD.
do you realize anything, babe? let me ask you a thing.
have you been neglecting GOD while you are so contented with your relationship? have you?
and when everything smashed to the floor, you're blaming GOD for wut had happened?
you're cursing GOD. you claimed He is being unfair with you. with your life. He is being cruel with your feelings.
LOVE is one complex and complicated matter to be discussed. every one has their own opinion regarding this. but as you got me chosen, this is wut my perspective is. i'm not overwhelmed with emotion when i write this. i am guided with my rational and conscious. my common sense. so i really hope when you happen to read this, you will seek His forgiveness for everything you have done.
let's us together find the light of love in GOD's blessings. :)
Aku sayang pansil biru akuuu.
aku sayang coyotito :D
love at 1st sight will not ALWAYS be ur true love, it jz happen so cz either 1)u haven seen such a guy/gal that make ur heart beat ever so fast, doesnt matter if u ever had experience or not. 2) u feel empty, and tat guy/gal come outa blue and make u feel whole again, filled ur emptiness, and u tot tat feeling is called love, which unfortunately is NOT..
Yes, u described love as an apple, yes, with the correct nurturing, the tree will blossom and fruits will grow, but remember this, not all fruits are sweet, some are jz plain, some are sweet, it doesnt mean tat when u taste a plain apple, u shud assume that the whole tree is 1 lousy tree which produce plain apples, no, u r wrong, u jz picked up the wrong apple, there are plenty of apples up the tree, y jz taste 1 and not some?
Life is all about trials and tribulations (erm, izit the right phrase?), we have our ups and downs, successes and failures, but do we ever give up when we met a failure? If u ever do, then u r reali not worth living at all, failure doesnt mean u r a total shit, it jz mean u r doin the right thing the WRONG way, get up and do it again, it doesnt matter how long or how many times u did it, it's a matter of how u survive it, how u overcome the obstacles, life's full of obstacles, if u cant face it, then how r u gona live in it?
Love is a greatest thing, and yet it can destroy a person, take caution when u ever fell in love, dun love too deep, as u will fall 2x harder when love is gone, not dat im saying love is destined to be gone, no, dats not wat i meant. Not all ppl actually noe wat love is all about, its not jz oni the irregular heartbeat when u see him/her, the excitement u get when u received his/her text/call, the feeling of being loved, being gushed with feelings of happiness whenever u r with him; no, love is not oni about dat, its MORE than tat, its a commitment, a promise between 2 ppl that they will overcome any obstacles together, however big it is, and stay together for as long as possible, if not 4eva, a promise dat no matter how many ups and downs they faced, they will still face it together, dat is love.
And dats y those ppl who after bcming couples like to say i love u witout truely understanding the concept of love, are very much easy to fall OUT of love. its jz a matter of time.and dats y i doesnt agree of saying i love u when u r 30y/o and below, bcz at that age, all we noe is jz like, not love, u may adore but still it is 1 rank lower than love..
at this age, u r jz finding sm1 who could accompany u, a person that could be with u 24/7, listening to ur whining n sharing ur ups and downs, but unfortunately, that guy/gal is merely ur soul-companion, whether anot he/she can be upgraded to soulmate still nid some time to figured it out..30+y/o onwards u say i love u and i wont doubt tat anymore, cz that time of ur life u start to reali find ur soulmate, the true soulmate that u will share ur feelings, for she is the other half of ur soul...every1, i suppose, has half a soul for the rest of ur life, for the other half is to be filled when u found ur other matching half-soul, thats why is called soulMATE...
Sometimes u hear ppl at the age of 30+ getting divorced, well, quite norm i guess, it all bcz the love has gone...and wats left of it is jz a task, a sense of responsibility, to continue the relationship for the sake of the kids, so as to gv the kids a healthy environment to live in and grow up in a happy childhood...To be forever in love is not easy as it seems, ppl as time passes, love starts diminishes little by little, unless we, being creative, adds a little spice once in a while, to maintain the sparks, so as it could keep burning on 4eva, but how many could actually maintain it??
and when the sparks are gone, wat left of it now is nothing but waxes..
Back to main part, taking ur own life bcz ur other half doesnt love u anymore is sadly, a stupid thing to do..Say u reali commit suicide, do u reali noe hu suffers the most? 1000% not that other half hu ditched u...no..he may sad for a while, contemplating on the memories of u (or not), but then? as time passes, doesnt matter weeks or months or years, he/she will eventually move on, totally 4gtin abt u, not remembering u anymore...dats a pity isnt it?? and while he totally 4gts u, how about ur parents? Ur family?? do u tink they will 4gt u easily as how he does?? no! they will b constantly reminded abt u, ur laughter, ur smile, ur sadnes, ur happiness, all memories of u are 4eva etched in their mind, trying hard not to let it go away, for thats wat left of u in them..how could they let it go?? ur anniversary will owaz be remembered, not like him/her...
suicide will owaz be the stupidest thing to do, even if its was the sake or revenge..or wateva it may b..the people u wanted hurt most are actually the least hurt, while the people u least wana hurt tends to get the max hurt..
so, consider carefully ur course of action, do u reali wan to hurt ur loved ones, the ones that truely love u for hueva u r, for the rest of their lives, or shud u jz move on, living the best of ur remaining life, n showin it to him/her dat he/she are jz part of ur life's journey..u shud actually thank him/her for it is them hu teaches u that life's not a bed of roses...he/she is merely a part of life that one are bound to experience at some stage..
so, move on with ur life, live better than wat u deserved rite now, he/she who ditched u duno wat they missed out for, not tat they ade missed it..show it to them tat witout them, u could still live a life, and a better 1...let them feel that letting u go means leaving bhind a chestfull of treasure in the vast ocean..
u may or may not hear this b4, but there plenty of fishes in the deep blue ocean, y settle for 1 ordinary-looking fish, while all this while there is plenty of colourful fishes swimming past u every single day...keep an open eye for the ones bside u, for it mayb the one, he/she hu are owaz bside wheneva u nid some shoulder to cry on or sm1 to share ur joys...
try to enjoy wat u have right now, ur frens, ur family, those are the ones hu r owaz bside u, no matter wat happens to u, they are owaz the 1 hu will stand bside u, support u, n help u thru difficult times...
~peace~
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haha. thanks ong. tis is another perspective of love. but still i bet this isn't really her problem tat you elaborating about. the core stuff in here is not how many apples you munch or wutsoever. it is just a metaphor to make her more understands.
but nahh it's okay. i bet she will be just plainly happy and recover after reading your "long post".:)
thanks for writing such a long explanation for her btw. haha.
i noe laa~the apple well, i jz use it oso as a phase, meaning theres a lot of apples out there oso, dun jz try 1 and not others~